you just don’t get it
I know it feels like you’re alone.
Like you’re speaking a different language to everyone around you; you’re in the same place but nobody understands, no matter how loud you yell or how hard you try, they just don’t hear what you’re saying. It feels that way, an overwhelming sense if being overseen or dismissed, because it’s not just a feeling, but a reality.
We are each our own existence, projected and curated energy to experience what our concious identifies as life. Depicted through a personal journey, raised in a certain way within a specific environment. Contradictingly, the world full of uniqueness blends into a sea of followers; curating the perfect storm to isolate any outlier who embraces or alters the mutation of social norms; an outlier by simply proving the point of life by experiencing loudly and fully. Ironically, demeaning and belittling more often than not these voices until they deem themselves unworthy to embrace their liveliness, squandered back into the box society curated to a bland square. Shrinking these lights, to feel wrong and different for doing exactly what they were intended to do, until they feel so far from normal it seems out of reach, along with everyone they once thought could hear them.
Yet a willow tree, won’t grow to be the same of a sweet potato. Both life, both plants; yet raised and nurtured in entirely different systems. We are all here, on individual and unique paths. Not meant to walk the path of another regardless of if that if what is now wrongfully expected, dicatated by the curation of a social construct. Assumed and expected to be and feel normal, anything outside the box drawn in the ink from another’s pen in a borrowed notebook, underlines and deemed unworthy, or abnormal. Oh, but if you really explore the idea of normal; defined as, “Conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected,” aren’t we all subjectively normal when we apply it individually. Each uniquely, we are all normal within our own conformants of life. We individually are often predictable, defending that we are exhibiting ‘normal’ behavior as ourselves within the lives of others.
It may feel like you’re speaking a different language or not speaking loud enough. Thats because. it’s not just a feeling, but reality. You are not meant to be the same, but rather to relate. To find connection and empathy in shared experience, opposed to what we know in comparison in false depiction of understanding. Nobody does, nor ever truly will, understand you. You may live the same experience at, at the same time, with all the same environmental and situation impacts; but nobody is you and that is what is so special.
Humans, are able to empathize. We are able to understand, we will not understand.
So, you may feel alone. But, you are not alone in that feeling.
