10.05
Today was the first sunny day in four days. That might not seem like a big deal, but I was born, raised, and currently live in Northern California, in a small valley were it’s a foreign world the experience of rain. I’m talking people lose the ability to drive, stay in their houses or crash. The only time I haven’t been in California was for two years of college when I was ‘healthy’. Otherwise, I’ve been central to my same house, my home base. I say that loosely because my parents are divorced and until I was 18, I was part of the court order to transfer my life weekly between the two houses. At my dads house, we moved every two years give or take on top of that, so I’ve slimmed my life down to a couple of ikea bags and a knack for packing.
Anyway. Today was the first day in four days that it was sunny. The sky was washed with a faint whisp of milky white when I peeked out my window from my bed as I opened my eyes- not quite clouds, moreso a layer of powdered dusting of the horizon. Like when you add milk to water, not quite white, just clouded up in an overall sense but lacking the structure of an actual cloud. Dew kissed the grass, and a brisk pass of airi greeted my legs. I’m wearing a sweatshort sweat from Aritzia, light heathered grey and a crewneck to accompany the shorts. High noname white socks, peeking over my platform mini uggs. Sitting in Rooted, the corner of the redwood leather couch, a warm undertoned brown to compliment the natural tones of the surrounding decorations. Slouched along a teathered string sit a couple of yarn tuft ghosts, an ode to fall and the upcoming Halloween.
My point as much, is it appears to be the perfect fall day. Sunday, morning in of itself as well. The perfect compromise of reset and work, paired with relax and decompress. A sense of calm in an overwhelming chaotic title of the week.
I have a few things to get done today, mainly this. My blog. I want to focus on getting at least one dairy dump and personal essay posted a week, and at least two to three reports a week. Nothing in particular, likely focusing in on fashion and lifestyle. I’ve luckily found the drawstring between what im good at and what I am passionate about. Not that I don’t enjoy writing. I do. But it’s something I’ve gronw to love as I’ve grown with it. Likewise to fashion. I wasn’t ever any good at it. Creative but in all the wrong ways. And yes of course fashion and attraction is subjective, theres no ‘right’ way. But it’s a form of self expression, honestly an art, ad it was never the way I wanted to turn out. It was like I was trying to say something but saying another, and until I learned how to use my pieces as individual and complimentary voices alongside one another it never made sense. Regardless, now I can combine two things I like to believe I’m good at together, and form new ideas and content people can consume. Because everyone is always consuming content in one fomr or another.
I also need to do laundry, which, ironically many people dread but I don’t mind it. I throw in the load, go do something else, and then throw it in the dryer. Plus it gives me time to stop and reflect for a minute when I’m folding clothes. I feel like everyone is always in a rush a constant state of go. And so inadvertently laundry is dreaded because it’s the ‘last thing’ people want to be doing when they could be doing something else. But it has to be done, one way or another. So why not take advantage of that time where we are forced to stop and slow down. Maybe it’s because people exist in a state of chaos, constant running to outrun what they will think about when they stop to slow down. But I like to think thinking about those things more often helps them be less intimidating and soul crushing when you do stop. Aside the point, I have to do laundry. And I am proud to say I don’t mind it, maybe go as far to say I even enjoy it.
I also get to see Bella today! How lucky and fun! I haven’t seen her in so long, since May because she has been in Hawaii. She came to Napa for her one year anniversary with Ryan and is staying in Santa Cruz tonight so she invited me out for the night. I’m so very excited! eeeek!
Other than that, probably walk Zazu if my mom doesn’t beat me to it. Apply for a few internships and finish up some homework for next week. I work Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday, closing the first three shifts and then 7-2 on Sunday. So I want to be ahead on my homework for the week. I’m thinking I will do this every Sunday- use it as my reset and setup week. Soup Mondays is tomorrow which I always love! This time a family friend is joining us and he said he would teach me to play chess which I have been aching to learn. I think it is such a cool skill. I have started learning but online so it’s not necessarily the same. So I’m also excited for that tomorrow.
Okay, I’m going to wrap this up but it’s always a blast talking to myself. And the world at the same time. XX
